Sinner

Have you had a sin that was so bad to you that you wanted to get rid of it, but could not.
     When I came closer to Christ almost five years ago Whooohooo! (could not have done this without God), I was lost on the whole sinner thing.  I went to church almost everyday when I was younger but I still did not pick it up.  The reason why I didn't understand sin because to me it was another home from home, but I would rather be at church than at my real house at times.  So all those years seating at church I did not get one ounce of knowledge about God, Christ, or the Holy Spirit because I was too busy sleeping in church.

   I got baptized when I was twelve years old and didn't know why, all I know was that I ended up in a chair in front of the church asking for my name and the next thing I was being prep for baptism.  After baptism I saw how everyone looked at me like it was the best thing to do which was but I did't know, all I knew was after being baptize you could not sin anymore to my knowledge anyway.  When I was twelve I thought sin was killing someone, fighting, cursing, and etc.  The thing that I didn't know was I forgot my "mind" which sin too because of my thoughts of others when I was mad or sad and I had lots of angry thoughts because I was picked on when I was in elementary and middle school.  I always thought that I was a good girl until my second freshmen year in college and I prayed to God while I was in church because as usually I was falling asleep again in church.

My prayer:

Father please help me because I am not getting your message like I want to.

When I prayed that prayer God sent so many people in my life that it was crazy, now I fast forward and after reading a chapter out of a book my friend gave me call "God is in the small stuff for the Graduate", and I realized I really can't get rid of a sin unless I give it over to God.  I need to stop controlling cause when I do it never work out for the best.  If you are controlling your life now stop and give it over to God, it will change your life..